The Hydra

The Hydra.

I am not what everyone thinks I am,
I've forgotten myself,
I'm not sure when it happened,
It was long ago,
When I was a child,
Though I still am,
I wonder what I was like,
But,
You can never remember something,
To the last detail,
Not exactly.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

Is it human to forget yourself?
Am I even human?
I'm different from the rest,
Never acting to their desires,
Only doing what I do best,
Act myself,
If that's what I'm doing,
Maybe this is all a lie,
Maybe I am acting like them,
Maybe they're being themselves,
And I'm the one who's the sheep,
Following the flock,
But I am no sheep.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

If I can't remember myself,
Maybe I should just hide,
Behind my walls and mask,
I created,
To hide the real me,
Which rips at my body to be freed from its cage,
I'm not sure if,
I should ever show the real me,
If it would be wise to,
What if I scare those,
Who were to used to the old me?
But what if,
It makes me more human?
Then what I already am,
Or aren't,
I'm confused by my mind.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

The human mind is,
A delicate thing,
Overloaded by change,
Something which is out of place,
Weird,
But isn't everyone weird?
You cannot be normal,
No one can,
It doesn't exist,
You can say you're normal but can't explain it,
It's thought as weird to speak your mind,
To hide away,
To be yourself when you finally emerge from,
The lie you've lived before hand.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

This is what I am,
A lie to the world,
This is not who I am,
I want to be myself,
To speak my mind,
Give opinions,
Act stupid,
Come out from my shell I've been locked in,
Afraid of the snide comments,
Jeers,
Bitching behind my back,
Just because I am who I am,
What I wanted to be.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

None of what I think will make sense,
If you're deep minded,
Thoughtful,
Or understand me,
You'll understand the meaning of my poem,
Some may put it down to wanting sympathy,
Others laugh and joke,
Insult the authouress,
But,
I don't care what you think,
Everyone hides,
Not just me,
I am one in millions who don't want to be thought as an outcast,
Though that's what people think of me.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

So,
Will you stand up for what you think or want?
I will,
Even if I stand alone,
If people want to hide,
Just follow the crowd,
Let them,
They're cowards deep down,
And will live with their shame,
Until they breathe their last breath,
I'm not here to offend,
Or make you think you have to do something,
All I want is for people to think,
Before they judge those,
Who aren't like the rest.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

I don't think I'll ever find the real me anymore,
My views and opinions have been changed,
By the cruel and twisted being known,
As Life,
I won't give in though,
I'll search the World to find the missing part that I lost,
I'll find it or die trying,
Because I won't give in,
My heart won't let me,
My Pride and Determination keeps me going,
Keeps me alive,
So you can make my life a living Hell,
Beat me down,
Mess with my mind,
But you'll never get me,
Never make me give in,
To the sick jokes you play.
Just to entertain yourselves,
At anothers expense.

The dragon with multiple heads,
A beast with different sides,
That is what I am,
The hydra is me,
I have forgotten which is my true side,
Real face,
And which are illusions of my mind.

I will never fall to mankinds glitches,
Keep an open mind,
Try my best not to judge,
Maybe I have found the real me,
Maybe this is who I am,
I am the hydra,
Dragon of mutliple heads,
And different sides,
And that's what makes me who I am,
A human like any other,
But the hydra is me,
That of many faces,
And emotions combined into one being.